The Son I Lost

 I met my son when he was three years old, you see he is my best friends son and after my friend died from cancer I raised as my own. 
 I use to go on walks with him, on these walks we could talk about anything, he would tell me about his day and I told him about mine. Sometimes we wouldn't say anything, but we were together. 
 I helped him learn how to ride his bike, then once he learned you couldn't get him off it. We use to go hiking, fishing, I remember the first fish he caught, it was a small Bluegill but to him it was a world record I still have the picture I took, now I look at it and I always smile. We use to go to the Cape to go camping and camping at the DAR, My son was a big help setting up the camp. 
 He had chores and even though he didn't like them he always did them, and because of that he made me so very proud to call him my son.
 As he got older I did my best to make sure I went to every school function, If I had a few extra bucks I would make sure he had some on him so he could go to school store or just hang with his friends. And when he started dating I made sure he had some money so he could take his girlfriend out for a good time. I even gave him fifty dollars to take his girlfriend to the fair one week before I lost him. 
 I watched a boy grow into a man right before my eyes and I was the proud parent, even though he wasn't my biological son he was my son by the grace of God.
 I guess I could have done more by him but I didn't know how to be a father so I did my best. 
 The good out weighs the bad and even though he now wishes I was dead, I still love him, respect him, forgive him but most of all I miss my son. I just wish he could put aside the problem of  9/25/2010 and understand I had to do what I did and forgive me as I have him for his actions.
 Someday he might look back and see I was always there for him, but there is a price to pay when you lash out.

Just a Phone Call Would be Nice

  The newest thing is my ex telling me Maegan doesn't want anything to do with me, she don't even call me Dad anymore. I've been told by my ex son Ed that Maegan doesn't even love me anymore. I have asked them both to have her give me a call to tell me this herself but I don't even get a phone call. 
  I found out that someone called child protective services on Pam and how did she deal with it, she left town and didn't inform DFC where she was moving, they got in touch with me and I told them where she moved to. Now they are investigating her for abuse. 
  Pam has been to court on a number of times to tell the court she is so afraid of me and or what I might do to her or her son. Oh how the tears flowed and there was such a fear of what I might do that Pam did the only thing she could have done, she moved from 25 miles away from my house to 1 mile from where I live. That is what I would do if I was truly afraid of someone, move closer to that person. So now she lives in the trailer park in Russell. This is the same town of Russell in Massachusetts I was born and raised in as was my Father, my Grandfather, my Great-Grandfather and my Great-Great-Grandfather. Ya you could say I have roots here.
  Is it me or is it a stupid idea to move less than 2 miles from someone who you are "in such fear of ". 

So Close

   My daughter is now living in the Town of Russell, she is left with her brother who put a loaded gun to my head and a Mom who only has time for her boyfriend. Please say a prayer to open up that cold black heart of my ex and let her see Maegan needs both her Mom as well as her Dad. 

  I would be happy just to get a phone call once a week, but the only thing I get is threats from my ex, her boyfriend G Moore and her son E Riel. 

Time to move on

  For my own good I must move on. This in no way means I won't ever stop Loving my daughter, however I can't let the loss of my daughter rule my every thought.
  I have to just know in my heart one day we will be together for ever. In the mean time I need to start going on with my life. I need to start getting out and meeting people, start looking for someone to share my life with, find someone I can go on day trips with, take boating, enjoy the day just talking.
  I ain't going to live forever, I'm just going to live while I'm alive!!!!!!

I Survived Pam Riel: A Letter To Maegan

I Survived Pam Riel: A Letter To Maegan: "I will never stop Loving you, I will always hold you within my heart. I will always be here for you, I will always be your DAD. Your Mom wi..."

I Survived Pam Riel: A Letter To Maegan

I Survived Pam Riel: A Letter To Maegan: "I will never stop Loving you, I will always hold you within my heart. I will always be here for you, I will always be your DAD. Your Mom wi..."

A Letter To Maegan

I will never stop Loving you, I will always hold you within my heart. I will always be here for you, I will always be your DAD.

Your Mom will not let me have any contact with you, and for that I am so deeply sorry your Dad was taken out of your life. Iwas there when you were born and as you took your first breath, and opened your eyes for the first time you saw your Daddy.

You will come home one day, I am so very proud to be your DAD.

Maegan's Suprize

  I went to Maegan's school and gave her a bunch of flowers, a card, abig box of candy in a heart shaped box, as well as enough cupcakes for all her classmates. She was so very happy to see me, she ran up and gave me a big hug & kiss. I brought the cupcakes to her classroom and the children were so happy, they thanked me for the cupcakes and I told them they weren't from me to them they were from Maegan, so they all thanked Maegan. Her smile was the best thing I have ever seen. I gave her a hug and that is when she said thank you Dad, Mom didn't get me cards to give out to my friends , but you got cupcakes.
 After that I stopped by the school office and asked if Maegan owes anything , they told me her school lunch money hasn't been paid, so I paid it for the year.
 When Maegan got home Pam & Ed took her candy, threw out her card and flowers. She is 8 years old, I know she was crushed. I got a call from Pam that night letting me know what was done and to let me know I was not to ever go to Maegan's school. I wish Pam could just think of what is best for Maegan, instead of using Maegan to hurt me, why hurt an 8 year old.

WE NEED TO STOP BEING OUR CHILDRENS FRIENDS!

It's about time Parents stop being their childrens Friend. Stop it your not a friend your the PARENT. Your children have friends, time we all raised our children. My son is being raised by my X Pam and she is a friend, let's him do just as he wants, he can at the age of 14 sleep with his 14 year old girlfriend , smoke weed , come and go as he wants, he is the one running the house. And he has to because Pam is never home, she just doesn't care

What Kind of Person is This

   What kind of person uses an eight year old little girl to get even? Let me explain, On 9/25/2010 in the town of Becket Massachusetts my 14 year old stepson Edward Riel held a loaded shotgun to my neck. He was upset because his girlfriend Lexy couldn"t get a ride home due to the fact his Mom Pam Riel was so drunk couldn't stand let alone drive. Our dog jumped up on the window when Lexy's Mom pulled into the driveway to pick her up. When the dog jumped back down she knocked over the cable box causing it to fall on the floor. Pam yelled at the dog and as the dog ran to hide Ed punched the dog then picked it up by her collar and threw the dog onto the foot stool. After seeing that I yelled at Ed saying "Don't treat the dog that way just because your girlfriend didn't get home when she was suppose to". As I got up from my chair to check the dog which was yelping, I saw Ed taking a shotgun off the gun rack. There was 5 guns on the rack not one had a gun lock on them. He closed the chamber on the shotgun and placed 2 shells in the shell holder. As I walked past my daughter Maegan, Ed brought up the shotgun and pointed it at me. Not wanting Maegan or Pam to get killed, I went up to Ed yelling "you pull a gun on me". He pressed the shotgun to my neck and I said "go ahead if you have the balls". It was then I heard the click, it was the trigger. I took my ball cap and slapped him in the face with it. I yelled to Maegan to get out of the house. Pam got up and started to attack me, digging her nails into my face. I got Maegan and we went home. When I got home I called the State Police and told them what had just happened. The State Police went to the home of Pam and Ed Riel and after waking Pam up after passing out, they found the loaded shotgun on Ed's bed, they were both arrested and charged. Pam was charged with Assult & Battery, Unsecured Wepons, and Child Indangerment. Ed was charged with Assult with a Dangerous Wepon, Animail Cruelty and Atempted Murder.
   Now I have to explain Maegan had been living with me in our home in Russell, we moved there on June 21, 2010 and she was inrolled in school here, because Pam and Edward were charged with a crime Pam took my daughter and forced her to live with her. I was told by Pam if I testified in their cases I would never see my daughter again. Pam has held my daughter over my head. So now my daughter is living in a home where Pam spends most all her time away from the home, leaving my daughter in the hands of Edward who is most of the time smoking dope, drinking and screwing his girlfriend Lexy, Pam spends her time smoking pot, drinking and spending nights screwing with Gary Moore in Russell. What kind of mother is this?